break through.

Today we broke through at The City Church. Until 2:30pm we worshiped God and ENCOUNTERED His uncomparable presence. I love simply being near Him. Yesterday Nicole and I went to the beach at 10pm and sat on lifeguard tower #3 to watch the waves in the dark and worship and pray and God just blessed us even more with His presence this morning. Isn't it stinking insane that we can go to powerful prayer at 7pm... then again from 10pm to 12am experience Him... and then sleep and wake up to His presence once again!? In Psalm 139 it talks about how we can't flee from His presence. it's so exciting! and the word of the day today is "whelmed." One of my favorite sites, Merriam Webster Online http://www.m-w.com/ says that this word means: Main Entry: whelm Pronunciation: 'hwelm, 'welm Function: verb Etymology: Middle English transitive senses 1 : to turn (as a dish or vessel) upside down usually to cover something : cover or engulf completely with usually disastrous effect 2 : to overcome in thought or feeling : OVERWHELMintransitive senses : to pass or go over something so as to bury or submerge it Yes, This is indeed the Word of the day. receive it as you wish... but for me it holds many meanings. the best is that I am whelmed by GOD. I am covered completely by Him and it has a disastrous effect on the "ME" that needs to be destroyed. He overcomes me in thoughts and feelings. I'm consumed by Him. On the other hand,I am whelmed by many other things.yes, many other things is all that i will disclose at this point in time. and to be honest, i cannot regurgitate all of the "whelming things" i've swallowed because I do not remember when and how they were ingested.all i know is i found myself today getting off of my face, right after REALLY being whelmed by God. And so I did what I always do... proceeded to clean up the outside part of the church... and perhaps the whelming began with everybody asking (as they do every week)"why are you doing this by yourself?" so, what am i supposed to say? all i know is i continued to roll up the delivery door and haul the "stuff" inside the church. I felt like we were making progress when I find out my car wouldn't start. sometimes the little things are just too much to handle. But, thank God for Sean Pearson and Joy Veale who teamed up to jump start my car (and it worked) So, then I went back to the cleaning process and we got it done by 3:15 because of the faithfulness of Scotty, Seany and Jakey. And I didn't know I was feeling anything at all... and i really didn't know i was feeling "overwhelmed"... that is until i got in the car. i drove down thornmint and by the time i reached camino san bernardo i was crying without evident cause. i felt like my heart had been unconsciously stuffed full of the cares of this world and now the additional cares were trickling over the wall of the dam. i know we've all been there... and I don't really think it's a bad place to be... it's then that you can just rest in HIS ARMS OF FOREVER.people are unfaithful by their corrupted nature... why do you think we have such a hard time trusting God and being faithful to Him? If people cannot be faithful to an ultimately faithful God, how can they EVER be faithful to ME? So... I think that this season of my life is a time of fully realizing the unfaithfulness of man. It hurts as dependencies are weeded and disconnected from my heart... but i think in the end it will be better. LOVE NEVER FAILS... and the love of God is the only perfect love, so I'm betting it all on Him. I don't want to give my heart away anymore. These things that fill it cannot be removed by the hands of man. .........................Being whelmed by the world can only be cured by the OVERWHELMING Love of God. and that is what i need. .............................................................................................................................................................In case you were wondering, Webster's REAL "word of the day" is:telegenic • \tel-uh-JEN-ik\ • adjective : well-suited to the medium of television; especially : having an appearance and manner that are markedly attractive to television viewers