pondering

life is getting more and more... different by the day. things are changing. during transitional stages i can never decipher which changes are good and which are bad... or more correctly, which things i personally would like to see changed and which changes i dread... there are many things that if left unaltered would be fine. and i would be satisfied.... but for some amazing, miraculous, undiscerned reason satisfaction is never enough for an abundant God. in all of the blurriness of transition im praying for clarity and answers to questions that if not answered soon may be left unaddressed... maybe switchfoot puts it best...

If you're a rose then I'm the thorn that's in your side...

did i get shot or shoot myself?

don't be there.
you'll be around and I'll be square.

in the words of Charlotte herself... it hurts to be square, but i must.
i need him