fighting

Fighting this sickness
cure---there is none.
Fighting disease
the battle’s not won
I’m fighting to live
fighting to breathe
fighting in all I do.
I’m fighting for peace
fighting for souls
fighting for you.

And I can’t deal with this pain inside.
I won’t put up with death
purge swallowed lies...
of
suicide.

Immunity to drugs
doesn’t help stop the sickness
It makes me numb inside
mixed mumbled mess.
Up the dosage,
kick up the high.
Press into extreme
without asking why
Looking around
scanning the crowd
Closing my eyes
the music’s too loud
Distracted from real
forgetting to feel.
Asking for help
easier said than done
If I hold it in
two will be one.
I’m fighting to see
fighting to swim
fighting to break through.
I’m fighting for life
fighting for me
fighting for you.
And I can’t deal with this pain inside.
I won’t put up with death

PURGE swallowed lies of suicide.